'I felt low and naturally prone to be irritable, and from the deep feeling of the difficulties in doing my part towards my family, led me to pant for liberation from those responsibilities which at times lie very heavily upon me. In this state I opened a book with something for every day in the year and met with something applicable to my wants that I shall transcribe it - "Golden Treasury for the Children of God" is the title of the book by C.H.V. Bogatsky: "Lord preserve me calm in spirit, gentle in my commands and watchful that I speak not unadvisably with my lips; moderate in my purposes, yielding in my temper where the honour of my God is not immediately concerned and ever steadfast where needful. "Lord grant me thy protection, and may thy blessing be upon me, that I may not bring an evil report upon that good Lord. I was permitted to spy out; but walk honourably through the wilderness and pass triumphantly over Jordan into Canaan. Amen."'