'Friday 4th June ?Martin Arrowsmith? (Sinclair Lewis). How many of my own questionings, disillusionments and hungerings are illustrated in this book. It has given me one of the worst fits of depression I ever suffered from. With the certainty I feel of being equal to big things, my inability to fight the circumstances that prevent me studying and preparing myself, makes me ache. Economics, literature, drama, social reform are only so many words to me, and yet I know that I could, with courage, make myself both an educated man and a social teacher. Well, I will try again.'